Sounds like a classic overthink‑your‑own‑life scenario. Pick a hobby that lets you build confidence in the basics—maybe parkour or weightlifting—then you’ll have the muscle and the mental muscle to trust the gear when you do jump. Don’t spend the whole time on each bolt; check, train, trust, and then jump. Just remember, the only thing worse than a bolt that didn’t click is a bolt that’s been left out of a plan you never wrote.